The weekend has just gone by and its Monday morning again. The buzz of the alarm reminds Ameya of his responsibilities and drags him out of the bed. His wife for 15 years,Priya is already up and finishing her early morning chores. Its time for the kids to get up and get moving, its school time.
This morning is no different, infact just the replay of the previous one thousand mornings in the life of Ameya and Priya. The only thing that has changed in these mornings, is the date. Every day for them is a theatre that plays the same show, where they play their role to perfection. Their corporate jobs have acquired them and that too, to an extent where, they don’t own their time or thoughts, leave alone the time for the clichéd ‘SOUL MATE’.
Let us just blur the backgrounds and the surroundings and just look at just Ameya and Priya, as a couple. Two lovely people , who met in college,fell for each other and at some stage in their lives decided to be for each other forever. As time went by and the life progressed everything around them grew except for the intimacy between the two.
The nonsensical fun that was part of their daily routine is non-existent, the chatter,the teasing and surprises are now replaced by well seasoned and agenda based talks. Hefty conversations involving home,finances,retirement planning are now the (only) things that they talk. Earlier they didn’t need topic to have a chat, now the urgency of the topic makes them chat.
Their day starts and ends on the same bed, just a few inches from each other, but the distance between them has grown miles.What is obvious is never said and what is said , may be has no soul to it.
The ‘COUPLE’ is now two individual entities under the same roof and may be, this marks the beginning of the end of a relationship, that was meant to be till eternity.
Speaking up to a spouse of 15 years might be more difficult for Ameya or Priya , as compared to, what it was when they spoke for the first time. Then it was an all to gain and nothing to lose situation, today it could be an all to lose and nothing to gain situation.
The conversations have the solution to everything in the past, their absence today is the cause of everlasting problems. The years and responsibilities have been a catalyst in ending them, but it’s not an irreversible chemical reaction.
May be may be, just get that bedroom conversation going and suddenly it might start rolling the time back.the issues that you thought were the reason , might not even exist, the anxiety over something could have been misplaced, may be what kept you away was just the creation of your own mind.
Shun those messaging apps and adorable social media comments, just speak up.
Yess, it is difficult , but not impossible.